Letting Go...

Nag-iisa, wala ka na

papalubog na naman ang ilaw
nagpapaalam na naman ang araw
ang gabi ay muling mamayani
at ang lamig ay hahaplos sa pisngi

ilang araw na ang lumipas
magmula nang ika’y magpaalam
ilang gabi na ang nagdaraan
ang pag-iisa’y tila ‘di na makayanan

ngunit kailangan kong indahin ang lamig ng gabi
ngunit kailangan kong tanggapin wala ka na sa tabi
nag-iisa, wala ka na
wala ka na, nag-iisa

ala-ala’y nagbabalik sa aking isip
mga larawan ng bawat sandali
pag-ibig nating sinumpaan
ipinangako sa liwanang ng buwan

ngunit kailangan kong indahin ang lamig ng gabi
ngunit kailangan kong tanggapin wala ka na sa tabi
wala ka na, nag-iisa
nag-iisa, wala ka na

ngunit kailangan ko nang masanay
at tanggapin na lumisan ka na ng tunay
ang lahat lahat ay bubuti ang pag-ibig ay mananatili
langit, lagi hanggang sa walang hanggan.

Music & Lyrics: Noel Cabangon

Like Ships in the Night

Today i received a very sad news... a man who was my former boss passed away. He used to own the TV network i was part of way back in 1991. He was a good man to me. Kind and gentle to me despite the many other impressions he gave to others. I have always felt he took kindly to me, sort of fatherly... in more ways than one. I can only guess if others also saw this in him. But for me, he was a very good man. His parting is also my loss.

But then again, a sense of loss has become like a shadow for me. Always there cloaking me in every corner. Sometimes i can see it clearly, but often i can just sense it. It's a blunt feeling, which makes it heavier i guess.

Next month will be that time of year when i remember Mai the most. He fell ill in July and passed away in August. It has been four years now but it seems just like yesterday. Everything is still so vivid to me. That brief fraction of time seems to overwhelm the many years we've spent together. Maybe it's my way of holding his memories close to me. I have long gotten over of his demise, but Mai will remain alive in my heart... in my smile.. in my triumphs... in my weakest moment... in my tears... in my life.

But i've really gotten used to it all. I know Mai is gone... really gone. But our love will burn forever until our Ships meet in the night once more!

May they all rest in peace!